For the past two weeks I've been getting up at the crack of dawn on Friday to go with my voice teacher to a High School to help some kids get ready for All-State Auditions. We have to give so many lessons for my Pedagogy class (pedagogy is the science and study of playing an instrument, in my case singing). Anyway, that's been pretty eventful. You have no idea how much you've really learned until you try and tech it. It's also confusing because with the voice you cannot make it too critical for fear of causing tension or over-complicating. But you also can't be to figurative because then they will really have no concept of their voice and always make believe the sound is a bird flying out of their head. It's kind of cool though because where an instrumentalist will learn the parts of the instrument, we do too, except ours is our body and we can't really take it apart and look at it too much. We can't adjust a string or the barrel if it is out of tune.
But I didn't mean to make this a voice lesson.
So what's going on with me.... Well, my weight-loss journey isn't going so well. I've started the downward spiral of eating bad things and not counting my points at all. I just need to get back to how I felt those first few weeks when I was so motivated and would stop at nothing. Now all I want is a big plate of Chicken Fingers! I also think I need to remember how eating right felt in my body and how much worse it feels when I eat crap. I know what I need to do so why can't I just do it?!?!?! Another thing that makes it worse is that Weight Watchers is doing this big thing where they'll donate money for every pound lost. And I haven't lost any since it started three weeks ago! It's just really frustrating!
It might also be a little bit because I miss everyone! I can imagine just how bad it'd be if Missy and I weren't here together. It would be just like my freshman year where I stayed in my room by myself all the time. And I'd gain 30lbs and wouldn't care what I look like and just exist. I never want to just exist again. I want to be a person.
On the bright side, Supernatural is going to rip my heart out and stomp on it this season because the brothers have separated in order to find themselves and not worry about each other and blah blah, they'll realize they are stronger together and live happily ever after after they literally find God and stop the end of times. And Glee had Josh Groban on this week!!!!!! I've only been in love with him since like Freshman year of HS!! <~ Statements like that are why I don't have a boyfriend. But that is for another blog post. So I will say adieu for now!
Love and miss you all!
Ciao!
Ferg
I've fallen off the bandwagon too Ferg. I haven't been to the gym since Thursday- but I'm def going today before this gets too out of control. Miss you!
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