This is my life right now....

After years of expensive education,
a car full of books and anticipation,
I’m an expert on Shakespeare and that’s a hell of a lot
but the world don't need scholars as much as I thought.

Maybe I'll go travelling for a year,
finding myself or start a career.
I could work for the poor though I’m hungry for fame
we all seem so different but we're just the same.

Maybe I'll go to the gym, so I don't get fat,
aren't things more easy with a tight six pack?
Who knows the answers? Who do you trust?
I can't even separate love from lust.

Maybe I’ll move back home and pay off my loans,
working nine to five answering phones.
Don't make me live for my friday nights,
drinking eight pints and getting in fights.

I don't want to get up, just let me lie in,
leave me alone, I'm a twenty something.

Maybe I'll just fall in love that could solve it all,
philosophers say that that’s enough,
there surely must be more. Ooooh

Love ain’t the answer nor is work,
the truth eludes me so much it hurts.
But I’m still having fun and I guess that's the key,
I'm a twenty something and I'll keep being me.

doh dah duh dah, do duh dah dah dah
doh dah duh dah, do duh dah dah dah
doh dah duh dah, do duh dah dah dah
doh dah duh dah, do duh dah dah dah

I’m a twenty something.
Let me lie in, Leave me alone.
I’m a twenty something.

doh dah duh dah, do duh dah dah dah
doh dah duh dah, do duh dah dah dah
doh dah duh dah, do duh dah dah dah
doh dah duh dah, do duh dah dah dah

Things that should happen on saturday night...

...When I'm bored and tipsy.

• Texts from last night should be continuously updating.\
• facebook should be hopping with my friends
• people on Livejournal should post lost of Supernatural fic for me to read
• twitter also should be hopping with my friends and the famous people i stalk, I mean follow.
• so should AIM!

But probably most of all...

... I shouldn't be on the internet making a fool of myself.

Rain Rain go away!

It's been raining a lot the past few days here in Athens! And it's supposed to rain well into next week. What happened to the beautiful clear days of a few weeks ago?!

For the past two weeks I've been getting up at the crack of dawn on Friday to go with my voice teacher to a High School to help some kids get ready for All-State Auditions. We have to give so many lessons for my Pedagogy class (pedagogy is the science and study of playing an instrument, in my case singing). Anyway, that's been pretty eventful. You have no idea how much you've really learned until you try and tech it. It's also confusing because with the voice you cannot make it too critical for fear of causing tension or over-complicating. But you also can't be to figurative because then they will really have no concept of their voice and always make believe the sound is a bird flying out of their head. It's kind of cool though because where an instrumentalist will learn the parts of the instrument, we do too, except ours is our body and we can't really take it apart and look at it too much. We can't adjust a string or the barrel if it is out of tune.

But I didn't mean to make this a voice lesson.

So what's going on with me.... Well, my weight-loss journey isn't going so well. I've started the downward spiral of eating bad things and not counting my points at all. I just need to get back to how I felt those first few weeks when I was so motivated and would stop at nothing. Now all I want is a big plate of Chicken Fingers! I also think I need to remember how eating right felt in my body and how much worse it feels when I eat crap. I know what I need to do so why can't I just do it?!?!?! Another thing that makes it worse is that Weight Watchers is doing this big thing where they'll donate money for every pound lost. And I haven't lost any since it started three weeks ago! It's just really frustrating!

It might also be a little bit because I miss everyone! I can imagine just how bad it'd be if Missy and I weren't here together. It would be just like my freshman year where I stayed in my room by myself all the time. And I'd gain 30lbs and wouldn't care what I look like and just exist. I never want to just exist again. I want to be a person.

On the bright side, Supernatural is going to rip my heart out and stomp on it this season because the brothers have separated in order to find themselves and not worry about each other and blah blah, they'll realize they are stronger together and live happily ever after after they literally find God and stop the end of times. And Glee had Josh Groban on this week!!!!!! I've only been in love with him since like Freshman year of HS!! <~ Statements like that are why I don't have a boyfriend. But that is for another blog post. So I will say adieu for now!

Love and miss you all!

Ciao!

Ferg

And so it goes.... Oh and Lucifer is coming...

...Tomorrow on the season premier of Supernatural!!!!! I'm super excited! I've been watching it since freshman year of college. I know you all are like OMG Ferg, but all I have to say is family angst, rock music, hot cars, hot boys, angels, demons, Love!!!

Ok enough about that.

So Athens is pretty cool. Basically all there is to do here is drink or study, so Missy and I have been pretty bored. This past weekend I went home because it was my Mommy's birthday. She's my best friend and being apart has been hard on both of us. And now with my brother at school in Gainesville it's just her my dad and the dog.

So anyway that was the longest drive ever! I kind of almost got killed a few times, but I survived. Mom and I got Chipotle and then the 30th anniversary cheesecake at Cheesecake Factory. It's like a little piece of Heaven in your mouth!

On the way back I picked up Missy's dog Draco. He was a very good co-pilot for the 7-8 hours I drove. Missy's been home most of this week so it's just me and him. She should be back sometime tomorrow.

Tomorrow I have my first staging rehearsal for our One Act. If you haven't heard I am the mute (non-singing part) in Susannah's Secret. Basically I'm Susannah's maid/servant and the keeper of her cigarettes. We'll see how it goes. It's a little frustrating and disheartening to not be singing especially as a grad student, but it gives me time to worry about my rep and everything else. Apparently, I wasn't as prepared as I should've been. Like I never should've been given a degree. Or at least it feels that way. In theory review we are learning basically the same exact thing we learned, but in a more updated way. And in Diction we're reviewing because we don't study it enough in undergrad. And in my lessons I'm learning that I try to control it too much and have tension that no one has really and truly addressed with me before. Pedagogy is okay so far, but I think that's just because I'm still not sure of all that I have to do. Thank goodness I somehow passed the history exam! Other than all of that everyone is very supportive and nice. We have Tenors and a real Bass!!! All of the students are very talented and driven and most of all supportive. I think it's going to be ok!

Also I've been doing Weight Watchers since May. Despite gaining when my grandmother passed away and my appendectomy, etc. I've lost 17lbs this summer! I'm only 1-2 lbs away from my 10% goal. But the last few weeks have been a little sluggish. I haven't been making the best choices and have gotten bored with tracking my food. So today I started what WW calls Simply Filling. Its where you eat Filling Foods (whole foods like veggies, fruits, non fat milk, lean meats, whole wheat, etc.) and then everything else is from a weekly points allowance. We'll see if this helps me get back on track. We have a pool at our apartment so I'm trying to utilize that.

So that's my life lately. I'll try and update as much as I can!

Ciao!

Ferg

Uno

So first I figure I should explain the title. If you remember in our production of Cosi fan Tutte, there was a line by Don Alfonso about Tina (played by me).

It was:

Don Alfonso: (talking about his plan to dupe the women) But my waitress Tina, she's no dummy, she might see through the disguise, she might even upset the whole apple-cart.

I always thought it was a funny/peculiar line and needed a title of my blog.

I'll right more later, but I have to get coffee before I pick up Missy. I just wanted to start this thing so Daryle wouldn't yell anymore.

Ciao Belli!